why can't you just love me back?

i've only just realized that "begin" and "being" are made of the same letters. the 'g' is just moved. i wonder if that means something. that as beings we are always beginning. beginning every single day. beginning our journeys.
some people say that love is easy. if you love someone, be with that person. but love ISN'T easy. no matter what. sometimes the other person doesn't love you back. sometimes you don't have the courage to say I FUCKING LOVE YOU SO LOVE ME. and sometimes you just know that you and that person have tried and it hasn't worked, and you know it WON'T work and you have to say, "i can love you from afar and have a little heartache, or i could love you and you could love me and we could destroy each other."
i'm wondering what's more worth it: the heartache i must endure over time, or destroying one another? because sometimes i just want to destroy each other. delicately, of course. what i really want is for us to defy the odds. and NOT destroy each other. run away together and enjoy each other's company. listen to music in your car, hold hands, see movies... we don't have to have sex. we don't even have to kiss. but you have no idea what i'd give to kiss you once more. i don't want to do anything half assed anymore. i don't want to pretend i'm happy like this. i want a white hot passionate love affair.

i dont own this picture!! if you can remind me where it's from, i will give credit where credit is due. not trying to steal =[