finally back!

drumroll please.
well, it's finally time.
i'm going to update you all on my incredibly boring life.
:)

where to start, where to start. well, russell is gone. which means that half of my social life is gone with him. who's going to cook me vegan food while i stand and stare and "help"? who's going to come to my grandma's to visit me when no one else wants to use gas? who's going to make me watch 1000 youyube videos? and who's going to sit in a parked car with me late at night analyzing everyone? wahhhh russell, come home, i miss you already!!!

this past weekend was wonderful. natalies party was cute, i really don't want her to go to florida for 7 months. it's not cool. but she's going to have a great time, and be tan. and thats all that matters. i felt really special to be included, i loved hanging out with her, and all our/her friends. sometimes i feel so weird like wait-i knew you guys til we were 11. then i went away for 8 years. now we're all friends again. i feel like i missed a huge chunk of the life i could have had if i stayed in east meadow. weird feeling, but i'm having trouble describing it. well, i believe in fate and i think its fate i got another chance to hang out with natalie, john, and jen, and meet their friends and become friends with them too. because i met some cool people at island trees too. wow this is sickeningly happy. can i just say that i have been off of my meds for a while and i feel great? i dont think its because i'm off of them. i think i'm genuinely happier and that makes me smile and love everyone. and its weird bc im not usually like that.

airen's party was awesome, too. me, natalie, russell, isah, alexa, the reaaallly hot gay guy Nick, airen, andrei, everyone made it amazing. i felt bad because airen seemed a little depressed and i love that girl. seriously. she deserves love and appreciation, not hatred. i will always have her back. i think that this world needs to learn to be respectful and loving. i don't think literally everyone should get along but everyone needs to give everyone else a chance. and we can all try to be happy and live in harmony.

the other night i went out with russell, john, aj, and scott. i'm so not used to being the only girl in the room, but it was nice. and then yesterday i went out with val, jamie, andrea, deanna, and aj scerbo [different aj lol] i havent seen AJ in forever. he's boss.

well, that's all for the update on my life. i forgot about 423855934589385959385 things i wanted to post but i will remember them at some point in time.

ps i applied for a job last night, wish me luck <3

does anyone [including, but in addition to] andrea want to get together and practice speaking french? im rusty and i want to be beyond fluent.