tattoo

i wish i had the body/the guts to get this tattooed on myself.

i think it's beautiful, and it reminds me of a tattoo michelle tea wrote about

in Valencia. a tattoo of a "Real" heart over her left breast.

even though we ain't got money, i'm so in love with you honey...

This week I saw American Beauty for the first time. i know, i know, i'm a little late on the uptake. BUT i'm so glad i finally saw it, it blew me away. and now i'm especially glad that i own it, because over the summer i bought it as a double feature with The Virgin Suicides (two dvds in one case from target for $5!). i love thora birch, i think she's an excellent actress, and i believe this is the first kevin spacey movie i've ever seen... i could be mistaken. in any case, the story was so intriguing. the twists and turns, the dialogue, the way it all played out, and it all started because spacey's character was horny and fell for a high school cheerleader. it was just brilliant. i wish i could convey how i felt about it, but after a long day at work and hanging out with danny for his birthday, i'm exhausted.

yesterday was the poetry reading for those who won the contest. they had us read 3rd, then 2nd, then 1st. so, i went first, and read my erotic poem to about 20 people. last was arianna, who's poem was beautiful. all of her poems are beautiful, just like her soul. i love that girl to death. when it was all said and done, and the open mic portion was over, we got our prizes. i got a $20 barnes and noble gift card, ari got $50. now i am not one to complain about book money, but i thought we'd be getting a little more. HOWEVER even without the money, it was an honor to be chosen and it was a fun event. tuesday i'm reading with the faculty, and i'm going to be verryyyy nervous for that one. but alessia and danny will be there :)

tomorrow is andrea's fashion show at post. i really wish i could be there, but i'll be at work instead, folding clothes until 10:30. it gives me time to think and to be alone in a crowd of people. i like it. i'll be with andrea in spirit, and i'm sending to her my love and luck.

it's going to be a busy week, but i'm ready for it. i'm so happy i'm working again, and that things seem to be on track. i hope everybody has a peaceful evening and weekend

i come bearing news.

a few weeks ago, i entered a poetry contest at my school, and guess what?

I WON!
THIRD PLACE!
i don't know how many people entered but it's assumed there was a considerable amount. i know a lot of people who entered. also, one of my best friends Arianna WON FIRST PRIZE!! which she totally deserves because she is a wonderful poet :)

as winners, we get:

• published in the school literary magazine
• a certificate
• and last but not least, a gift certificate to BARNES AND NOBLE

this is so wonderful, i can go book shopping! we're not sure how much we're getting yet. i also get to read my poem to an audience on thursday at 11:30, and tuesday [this is separate from the contest] i was invited to read at a faculty poetry reading! i feel so honored. it makes me feel thismuchcloser to being a "writer". i am a writer. it's what i do.

these past few weeks have been hectic. i started my new job, which is going very well. i've been working hard at school as usual [i have the rest of this semester and then one more year before i ge out of here!] and i have the usual responsibilities of watching my brothers, voluntarily babysitting for other families [trying to increase my bank account], talks of the future, etc. everything has been falling into place :)

i really want to thank all of the good people in my life for loving me at my worst as well as at my best. what would i do without you all? i'd also like to thank blueberry tea, all the blogs i look to for inspiration and support, and the commenters, too. i gotta go, tonight i plan on doing some homework, working on my chapbook [its my final for poetry], and reading some more of "Charmed Thirds" by Megan McCafferty, so i can start CHELSEA, CHELSEA, BANG, BANG.

goodnight :)

spoiler alert: the last song

nicholas sparks always makes me cry.
he always makes me fall deeper in l o v e.
and he makes me want to write letters.

the last song had a lot of good things going for it.
miley was taking her turn as a "serious" actress.
if it weren't for the dumbasses she was working with,
she'd have been able to make this into the opus it was meant to be.

the last song had sea turtles.
yes, thats right.
sea turtles.
it was my favorite part.
they hatched and crawled to the ocean,
majestic.

don't see the last song if you hate crying.
just because its not all GOOD doesn't mean
it won't make you bawl.
if you hate seeing bad things happen to dads,
don't see this movie.

do see the last song if you like miley.
do see it if you like sea turtles.
do see it if you like crying.

i guess i'd give it a 2.5 or a 3 out of 5, but thats just me.

"GREAT spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds."
albert einstein

another beautiful, sunny, 66 degree april day. i hope the "april showers" don't come for a while. i'd really like some "may flowers" though. because today is such a glorious day, it brings out the love/peace/tranquility in me. i just want to share with you some blog posts by bloggers that i love. i love these blogs because the girls who run them seem to share my core values and beliefs, that love and happiness are essential, and feminism is second nature.

cassie at peace&posies
samantha at unconventionally beautiful
laura marie at a diary of little things and curiousities

i can't wait...

for orientation at my new job tonight :)

for the lemon-green tea and fresh bakery bread my grandma is bringing tomorrow

for Finnbar, her shnoodle who's coming here with her, to go for a walk with me

for the next few weeks of school

for summer <3

for shopping in a few weeks with my paychecks, so i can get a new wardrobe :)

for the new FOREVER21  to open in the mall so i can spend all my money there [too bad i cant work there]

for my yoga class next semester

to enjoy the beach this summer to the fullest.