http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2006/09/27/top-ten-terrific-things-about-bipolar-disorder/

this article is a little weird. i mean, i knew all of these things already, and i know it is trying to show a good side, but it makes me a little angry. i would rather be less creative and NOT bipolar than say, "oh hey good thing i'm bipolar cause i write better songs." also, the staying up for days thing? not fun.

http://www.enotalone.com/article/9551.html

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I'm pretty sure that if Sarah Mo' ever met me in person, she wouldn't necessarily be scared. I mean, I wouldn't tell her that I follow every one of her blogs, or that I google her, or that I wear scarves on my head because of her. To be honest, though, lately I've been good. That means, the only "stalking" I've been doing the past week or so is taking note of her status updates on facebook, and trying to decipher her twitter.

Well, Sarah, if you're listening (reading), I love you.! keep on writing and keeping the masses entertained.

it's so easy to fall.

but the pain of the bruises and scrapes can keep you from getting back up.

Can someone tell me who said this?

Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit it openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worse, returned. But the one thing about human beings that puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within.

today my psychologist asked me if the reason i was having trouble sleeping is because i was up late watching pornography. lmao.

GOALS FOR THE NEAR FUTURE

*lose some weight and learn to feel more confident

*stop listening to all the negative forces in my life or at least minimize what i can

*stop hanging around waiting for people to come to their senses. i can't change you, i am wasting my time trying and i am hurting myself along the way

*find a talk therapist and find a medication that works well for me

*allow myself to be a little bit free-er and a little bit stronger

*stand up for my convictions 100 times more if i have to. i will not back down.

*not let people get the better of me

*learn to admit when i'm wrong and fight when i'm right

*find a new job!!!! one that makes me happy!

~more to come ~

they say there's beauty in the breakdown

but all i can see is the beauty in you