why do i lose every contest i enter?

currently reading:

*"bust" and "instyle" magazines with alia shawkat/ ellen page and taylor swift respectively.

* the time travelers wife by audrey niffenegger

last night i checked out a book called "music lust" and it was ok... it was supposed to tell you what kind of music to listen to depending on your moods and shit but instead it told me nothing. it made me decided to download/borrow cds by: air, edith piaf, siouxsie and the banshees, prince, sugarcubes, sigur rios, and the lovemongers. it reminded me to listen to more cranberries, bjork, joan jett, patti smith, queen, etc.

i also checked out a book called "how beautiful the ordinary," a compilation of writing by many different artists. it was fictional, and told stories about being glbtq. i read 3 stories.

this is what i wrote in my review on goodreads: "i chose to read 3 stories from this collection. the book features stories (fiction) from twelve popular authors on being glbtq. i read stories by: david levithan, francesca lia block, and julie anne peters. i've read more than one book by each before. although i love david's writing normally, i just couldn't get into his story. i'm still confused as to what it's about. block's story is told through blog entries and emails, and tells the story of a girl who has always identified as straight falling in love with a girl who is in the process of becoming a boy. not her best work but i liked it all the same. the best story for me was peters' story about two lesbians' "first time" with each other and in general. the best way i can describe the writing style was: there were two columns and each was assigned to one of the girls. the story was sensual, truthful, and sexy. loved it"

i just downloaded john mayer's new cd, "battle studies." supposedly the first song, 'heartbreak warfare" is about jennifer aniston. it's a good song. he's talented even though he is very annoying. him and kanye need to stick to music and shut their mouths at all other times.

i'm also working on a new story, and trying to find time to breathe and not kill myself at school.