dear mother

Dear mother

You’ve only known me for twenty years

I should think you’d understand by now

Who I am

I don’t believe you

When you say you’ve tried your best

It never mattered

As long as you were happy

You never wanted anything to do with listening

I wasn’t ever what you wanted

I wasn’t ever gonna be that girl

Dear mother

You stifle my precious creativity

I cannot have imagination

It’s who I am

I don’t believe you

When you say you’ve held on tight

It never mattered

As long as you were happy

You never wanted anything to do with working on it

Our relationship’s forever haunted

I wasn’t ever gonna be that girl

Dear mother

I wish you knew the way you tear me up inside

All of the sorrow I’ve held in my mind

I’m lost, I’m drowning

I don’t believe you

When you say you’re here for me

Always so selfish

As long as you’re happy

You never wanted anything to do with understanding

Every moment so demanding

I am terrified of handing

My life to you

Dear mother

Can you please forgive me for whatever I have done to you?