summer goals 2010

ok for reals... here are some summer goals that i really want to accomplish:

-take 50 pictures [this is hard for me because when i have my camera, i forget to use it... and usually i forget it in the first place
-save at least $700 more than i already have
-spend more time outside
-do more yoga
-lose 5 pounds, [of fat, gain muscle :)]
-journal more [havent truly journaled since april!]
-make some collages
-read a book a week [easy shmeazy lemon peazy]
-do fun things with my brothers, who are 8&9 like: bake, tie-dye, explore
-catch up on true blood, arrested development, skins, and weeds [at least 2/4!]
-complete second draft of dream catcher, and either start third OR start next story.. at least the outline, main ideas.

and in prep for the fall:
-go to academic advisor and make sure everything is in order for my associates
-find more concerts to go to [lights? gaga? evanescence? etc]
-buy fall/winter clothes


more to come... what are your summer goals?? i'd love to know.

something to bore you to death

i stole some of these goals, and i modified others. but most are my own goals and i plan on accomplishing them all. i'm going to compile a huge list of goals, and them make huge posters so i am reminded of them every day.

then, i'm going to cross them out one by one as they are accomplished, and i'm going to 

smile.

i plan on making 100+ goals and accomplishing at least 85.

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

-anais nin, french author and diarist. 

1. finish my masters in creative writing& publishing.

2. send five anonymous just because cards.

3. get a butterfly tattoo

4. dye a streak of my hair a crazy color like pink or purple

5. own a baby grand piano.

6. write a novel or compile a volume of poetry. get published in the "real world."

7. start a once-a-month book club.

8. save $30,000

9. learn to play my favorite songs on the guitar/piano

10. get a job at a record company and write songs for other artists

11. roadtrip to LA.

12. visit paris. stay a while.

13. adopt a kitten or puppy and give it the best home it can have

14. go to the andy warhol museum.

15. complete 10 paintings to be proud of

16. take a photo every day for a year

17. host a themed dinner party.

18. become fluent in french

19. make 10 new friends

20. but stay close with family and old friends

21. forgive past grudges and ask for forgiveness

22. write one thing i learned that day daily for a year.

23. plant my own garden.

24. purchase a vintage typewriter.

25. go skydiving

26. create a signature recipe

27. try a new food and decide i like it.

28. learn how to knit or sew.

29. inspire someone in a big way.

30. create a collage journal.

31. stick to a healthy diet

32. complete 4 short stories 

33. have a child

34. be a great mother

35. read over 600 books

36. see tim burton's exhibit at the MOMA

37. visit 3 other "important" museums

38. write for thef-bomb.org

39. spend a night on the beach

40. do more yoga and make the changes i need to feel good about my body

41. create something weekly. something to be proud of, or giggle at.

42. do one GREAT deed a month and many good deeds weekly

43. love with all my heart

44. make 3+ chapbooks and give them out to strangers

45. participate in a watermelon eating contest

46. make a bet

47. buy more recycled items and live a more earth friendly lifestyle

48. have a room in my house/apartment that functions as a studio for my art and writing

49. draw something i am proud of

50. review a book for the newspaper
51. see 5 more influential artists/groups in concert [3 down, tegan&sara/paramore don't count because i'm seeing them for the second time]
51. take a writing workshop with francesca lia block
52. complete one of keri smith's books or 50 things project
53. meet sarah morrison
54. meet lady gaga
55. finish butterfly project


3 goals completed as of 6/23 :)

TO BE CONTINUED...

whats the story, morning glory?

i'm going to stop making plans and saying im going to do stuff.

im going to stop saying and start doing.

because actions definitely

speak louder than

words &&

my time to

shine is now.

things im going to do sooner than later:

=work on getting more things published

=start writing EVERY day for a certain amount of time

=drink more water, eat better, excercise

=get a job for reallll

=decide once and for all if i'm staying with him or moving on

=find a way to get to france (find a nanny job, get a work visa, etc)

**more to come**

2010!!

2010 is so soon... its just about a week away, and i am so excited to be done with 2009 for good. 2009 was a wild year. i left cortland for good, i started over in a new school, i broke up with my boyfriend and was with someone else, things didn't work out, i got back with the boyfriend which is for the best, my parents got divorced and my dad moved out, i lost my job and couldn't find a new one. i got to see my grandma a LOT, and went to a few concerts i wouldn't have went to if i had a job, i learned that family and friends are so important... i could go on and on and on. but 2010 is going to be 20x better than 2009. it has to be... here are some of my goals for 2010:

1)find a job, preferably one that i like, and save my money... i'm going to be 20 years old, my "future" is so close and i need to be prepared to start a life on my own without my parents.

2) continue to be there for my family, watching my siblings, spending time at home with both parents, still visit my grandma all the time.

3)see some friends i rarely see, more often. and make a few new ones.

4)exercise more. not only to lose weight, but to feel good about my body, and to be healthy and emotionally stable. i know that when i do exercise, my day is a lot better because i am awake and it just makes me feel great.

5)eat healthier. i LOVE healthy food but i always go for the snacks. i need to moderate what i eat and eat more fruits and veggies and low-cal snacks.

6)write, every day. whether it's a post on here, an addition to a short story/long story, a poem, a journal entry, a school assignment... i need to buckle down and make sure i write some sort of thought down every day. i pretty much do that already but i'd like to continue.

7)Create, every week. whether its a painting, drawing, doodle, collage, etc., i want to create art for myself to hold onto for the rest of my life

8) treat others like i'd like to be treated. with the exception of one (large) incident, i generally treated people with respect and cared for people in 2009. i want to continue to do that in 2010 and for the rest of my life. HOWEVER, this does not mean i will be walked all over like i was in Cortland. i didn't respect them, i DISrespected myself. very sad.

9)believe in myself. i can do it. i'm worth it. i'm not below anyone else. i am just as creative and smart as other people, i have my own talents. i know i will still doubt myself in 2010 but i want to think of myself in a higher respect. i deserve it.

10)read. a lot. i already do this, but i definitely need to continue. in 2010 i will be keeping a "2010" shelf on goodreads where i will put all of the books i read that year. i hope the number doesn't disappoint me.

11) do well in school. A's and B's, please. go every day that i have class. save up my alloted absences, so i can stay home when i really need it. continue to walk to the bus, and then onto campus. the walks wake me up better than a cup of coffee.

12) love. with all my heart. take care of danny, but still take care of myself. love my parents even though they are flawed. they love me. help them out. even though she doesn't always show it, my mom needs a lot of help. i need to continue to be there for her. i will also continue to help my dad, my siblings, my boyfriend, my grandmother, christina, anyone who needs help.

13) forgive, forget, move on. the past is officially the past. things danny did in 2007 or whatever so and so did last year... these things don't matter. what matters is NOW.

i guess 13 is enough for now, these are just my short term goals. i'll do a post someday soon on my "bigger" goals. happy holidays <3

GOALS FOR THE NEAR FUTURE

*lose some weight and learn to feel more confident

*stop listening to all the negative forces in my life or at least minimize what i can

*stop hanging around waiting for people to come to their senses. i can't change you, i am wasting my time trying and i am hurting myself along the way

*find a talk therapist and find a medication that works well for me

*allow myself to be a little bit free-er and a little bit stronger

*stand up for my convictions 100 times more if i have to. i will not back down.

*not let people get the better of me

*learn to admit when i'm wrong and fight when i'm right

*find a new job!!!! one that makes me happy!

~more to come ~