self esteem

hello, my dear kittens.
today, i want to talk about self esteem.
everyone has self esteem. what differs for each person is how much self esteem a person has.
some people have a LOT of self esteem. maybe too much. these people think they are akin to jesus.
then, there are some people, many of them hardworking, lovable, beautiful-on-the-inside-and-out people who have the worst self esteem like ever.
and i really feel terrible for those people.
i used to think i was the lowest scum of the earth.
and so when i see some of my best friends feeling ugly, feeling fat, feeling stupid; feeling like they have nothing to live for, feeling like they can do no right, feeling that they will be unsuccessful, etc... i really feel awful. because if you think you are a piece of shit, sometimes you start to act like one. you give up on everything, and you forget who you are. you forget that you matter. i have a friend, she's beautiful, she's so smart, and so sweet. but she hates herself and therefore she feels worthless. so she lets her schoolwork slip to the side, and she lets her family dictate how she perceives her body. she does self destructive things and practically looks for danger. she won't let herself buy things she LOVES because she thinks people will talk about her behind her back. she is a wreck. she wants a boyfriend desperately but allows herself continuously to be a one night stand.
but if she turned her life around, just a little bit; took her job seriously, shut off her family's comments in her head when she went shopping, allowed herself to dictate her own fashion rules, and put in effort into saying "THIS IS ME. FUCKING DEAL WITH IT." she'd be an amazing catch. confidence= beauty. she's already beautiful, but she needs to own it. she needs to radiate it from her skin. she needs to be herself and be unafraid. and i hope she knows i love her, she's one of my soul sisters, and she will always have a friend in me.