that 70s show

when this show first came out, i think i was too young to appreciate it. i didnt like it, i didnt watch it, i basically didnt pay attention to it. but now i am addicted and its always on my fucking favorite channel, "the-N". i love the-n for these reasons:

1-^^

2-degrassi

3-south of nowhere

4-instant star

5-what i like about you

6-daria

theres probably more. i'm too tired to think.

fuck bitches get money

i was never one for holding my tongue. i've always just blurted shit out, and it's gotten me into trouble in the past. then, a few years ago, i realized that theres a time to be quiet (rarely hehe). but i'm getting fed the fuck up with a certain situation. ok lets call them person a and person b.

A is my close friend since middle school. i love her i really do. b is just some fake ass bitch. i was friends with A, and B, separately when they started hanging out together on their own. suddenly person b decided she didnt like me anymore. then she started flirting with my boyfriend while they were at work together. oh fuck that. i didnt care that another girl was talking to him. i DID care that this girl was the same who had randomly stopped talking to me. oh hell no. so i call this bitch up on the phone and scream in her ear that 1)how dare she abandon me and then flirt with my boyfriend and 2)how dare she buddy up to personA, when, to be honest, she fucking hated person A a few weeks ago. her response? basically that person A was desperate and needy and made it so that person B never had to put any work into the friendship. flash forward a year or so and both "persons" are still best friends. idk what to do. its driving me crazy that person a is so naive. but she knows i dont really care for person b, and i dont want her to think i am jealous. because i really value person a's friendship and i dont want to make them feel bad about themselves. what do i dooo?

i get depressed. i get depressed for unrealistic reasons. i get depressed when i find out that people MY AGE are living a life i probably won't be living even 5 or 10 years from now. it chokes me up when i find out that such-and-such author had their first book published at 17 or that Tabatha, of Married to the Mob blog, is exactly my age, actually a few months younger, and is getting paid to do a lifestyle blog for a successful NYC clothing company. i can't even find a mediocre job, and she is getting paid to do exactly what i am doing now.

i try to help myself out. i search craigslist, and the internet, and the classifieds to see if there are any writing jobs i can get. I've decided to start doing open mic nights. i want to publish a zine but it's going to take a lot of time, and without a job to begin with, i don't have the money to produce it. i am not trying at all to be woe-is-me. i really am trying to be positive. but, you know, i get depressed.

Memoirs of a teenage amnesiac.

um.. so as soon as i posted that last post i found out that Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac is a film in post production! So it's funny I was drawn to the book. I had never heard of it til i saw it on the shelf, wedged between a few boring Teen Novels. go read it so you can see the movie with me!!!

Okay so it’s a rainy Thursday morning. I just showered and put on some comfy clothes and I’m feeling like it is the perfect time to take a break from surfing the internet to talk about some books and movies. J

So I’ve been reading like crazy lately again, which makes me really happy because I feel like I’m exercising my brain. A few weeks ago I started reading Sara Shepard’s Pretty Little Liar’s series. At first glance, they look like they are fluffly little books about boys and gossip. But they really blew me away and surprised me. The series follows four friends; Spencer, Aria, Emily, and Hanna after the loss of their 5^th friend Ali. Suddenly, their perfect little Pennsylvania suburb isn’t so wonderful anymore as the girls begin to realize that they are being watched by someone who knows all their dirty little secrets and is willing to expose them to the world. Each book reveals new secrets and new unsolved mysteries. I’ve read the first 5 and I’m waiting for the library to get in the 6^th! I’m pretty impatient…

Then there was Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac by Gabrielle Zevin. This book was amazing. I read it in less than 2 days. I couldn’t put it down. It follows Naomi, a beautiful young adoptee who loses a coin toss. As a result, she hits her head and forgets everything that happened in her life after the age of 12 (she is now 17). She struggles as she learns who she was, and who she wants to be. This book is heartbreaking and sincere. I definitely would buy this and stick it on the shelf for a rainy day.

And now, I am reading Vegan Virgin Valentine by Carolyn Mackler. It’s a little “young” for me, but it’s still a good story so far. I’ll let you know how it is.

As for movies, I really can’t wait to see The Time Traveler’s Wife. I know it is based off of a book that I have yet to read, which is a but unfortunate but I guess I’ll live. It looks promising, and I usually admire Rachel McAdams’ taste in movie roles. She really is the most beautiful actress I’ve seen lately. She’s gorgeous, but real looking.

Also, I’m really waiting for New Moon to come out. It was my favorite Twilight book, for one. I know a lot of people may disagree, but wahatever. I am definitely team Jacob. Plus, I’m tired of hearing about it. I just want to see it. Before the Twilight movies, I really liked Kristen Stewart. She was in In the Land of Women, and Speak, and I thought she did a really good job. She is a good Bella but now she is so overexposed. I’m not so sure about Nikki Reed as Rosalie. She seems like she’s extremely nice, and Rosalie… isn’t. Then again, a lot of actors and actresses like to play characters that are different than themselves.

Someone recommend some good books and movies to me please. Oh, and definitely some music!

<3

lettahs

i miss getting letters. i love letters. i love love letters. i love hate letters. i love imissyou letters. i love letters. somebody write me a letter.

pop culture dose of the week.

so, this past sunday, america watched as daisy delahoya made one of the dumbest decisions on "reality" t.v. and picked london over flex.

reasons why london did not deserve to win:

- he left randomly for a while and broke daisy's heart

-he got a new girlfriend during his absence

-he can't even read. when 12 pack, i mean 'dave', is able to read wayyy better than you, you have a problem.

- he is a 30 year old without a steady job

-THE WHOLE REASON DAISY HAD THE SHOW WAS TO FIND SOMEONE DIFFERENT THAN ALL THE OTHER MEN SHE HAS DATED. she said herself that london was exactly like the rest.

reasons why flex did deserve to win:

-he is protective

-he is smokin'

-he was there for daisy, not for publicity

-he proved to her again and again that he would be there for her and do whatever it takes to be her man, while london copped out.

thankfully, i hear rumors that although she picked london in the finale, daisy and flex were together in the end and will be at the reunion show together as a couple. we shall see!

now, for movies.

orphan was a crazy mother fuckin movie that spooked the shit out of me. i wont give away details, but anyone who wants to adopt, dont go see this lol. also, be wary of children who seem like 'old souls'. this movie does a good job of scaring even people who "never get scared". if you wanna see it, i'll go with you!