Wednesday, December 30, 2009
[INSERT NOUN HERE]s that inspired me in 2009*
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Tuesday, December 29, 2009
note to self::
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celebrity
i find the world around me so amazing, even when i want desperately to change it. so much is wrong with this world, and i say "amazing" hesitantly. liken it to Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone when Mr. Olivander says that Voldemort has done "great things... terrible, but great." what he means is that just because Voldemort did crazy, insane, horrible things to people does not mean he wasn't an evil genius of sorts. his accomplishments, though inhumane, were "great," meaning huge. so this world, to me, is like Voldemort in a sense. terrible, but great. the greatest, and sometimes most terrible thing, is technology. technology has brought us texting, calling, facebook, constant connections with others. for me, it has given me a place to write when i don't feel like sitting down to a paper diary. it has given me and countless others blogs so that we can get our words across oceans without publishers or any 3rd party trying to cash in on it or make it something it's not. technology has given ways for rapists and criminals to find their victims with ease. technology has given boyfriends and girlfriends reasons to not be romantic (ie sending letters [which i still do sometimes, but i wish i did it more] and surprises in the snail mail, which worked just fine for people in other centuries). it has made wars easier, yet it has made it easier to make friends and help others ( like by organizing food drives, blood drives, etc). and then here comes the kooky part... anyone can be a "celebrity."
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Monday, December 28, 2009
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Labels: poetry and prose
Saturday, December 26, 2009
i'm moving to the library
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Friday, December 25, 2009
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what i got for christmas this year :)
this is not a book (keri smith) (book)
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Thursday, December 24, 2009
boredom
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this song makes me cry
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Wednesday, December 23, 2009
2010!!
2010 is so soon... its just about a week away, and i am so excited to be done with 2009 for good. 2009 was a wild year. i left cortland for good, i started over in a new school, i broke up with my boyfriend and was with someone else, things didn't work out, i got back with the boyfriend which is for the best, my parents got divorced and my dad moved out, i lost my job and couldn't find a new one. i got to see my grandma a LOT, and went to a few concerts i wouldn't have went to if i had a job, i learned that family and friends are so important... i could go on and on and on. but 2010 is going to be 20x better than 2009. it has to be... here are some of my goals for 2010:
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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
wishlist :)
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Labels: lady gaga
expelled
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Labels: poetry and prose
i dreamed a dream in days gone by
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Thursday, December 17, 2009
being born with just one sex ... is a mutation."
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Tuesday, December 15, 2009
pandora playlist:yeah yeah yeahs
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Labels: music
tell me a story, i know you're not boring
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Labels: movies
kill the lights
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Labels: poetry and prose
the cortland diaries: 3
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Sunday, December 13, 2009
i miss you.
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Paradise by the Dashboard Light
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Friday, December 11, 2009
goodnight moon
i just read the blog of a really interesting girl... she's my age and she has all she could ever want. she has her own house, multiple artistic jobs that she loves, etc. she's a student, she works hard, she sounds like she has it all together.
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Thursday, December 10, 2009
song song song
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Labels: poetry and prose
cyndi gaga
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Wednesday, December 9, 2009
breathe no more- evanescence
this is my mood of the day:
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side.
All the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
Too sharp to put back together.
Too small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.
Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
But I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more.
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why i love him
i love him because... i just do. i looked into his eyes for the first time and it was just cheesy magic. i knew. even when we were young. and when it got hard, he stayed. when i beat him physically and emotionally he stayed. he loved me enough to let me beat and berate him and he never did it back. sometimes he's trouble. sometimes he makes me want to bang my head against the wall. but as many times as he upsets me, i probably hurt him twice as much. i've done some bad things. i've cheated and lied, i ran away into the arms of other people when things got tough. i made him think i had left and was never coming back. he's never done this to me. i don't love him because i feel obligated or because its easy. when it comes to love, there is no "because." love is just there. its not even a feeling, its a way of life. i love him, and as much as i complain, i'm not going to stop. because he's my best friend and my partner in crime. the one person i can expose myself to. i love him because...i just do.
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Tuesday, December 8, 2009
today was a day just like any other
i just saw a video over at the f-bomb. if you have a second, please go watch it. it's awesome. i think it's a really positive message and i think it's interesting that the speaker is a male. in other news i'm currently watching the first season of 30 rock (pretty good so far.. only say 1.5 episodes), the complete 3rd season of scrubs (loving it. jd and elliot get married already... a girl can dream. if i can't marry sarah chalke myself, someone else should get to do it.) and i got a dvd today from the library called "Murder Never Skips a Beat" about murder, beat poetry, and William S. Burroughs. didn't watch it yet but i should soon because the library needs dvds back in 2 days. what the fuck. we all know my stance on this.
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question existing lyrics- rihanna
and undo my skirt
stare at myself in the mirror
pick me apart piece by piece.
sorrow decrease
pressure release
i put in work
did more than called upon, more than deserved
when it was over , did i wind up hurt? (yes)
but it taught me before a decision ask this question first
is this my limit?
can i endure some more?
Chances i'm Giving,
Question existing
who am i living for? ooohh
is this my limit?
cant i endure some more?
Chances I'm Giving,
Question existing.
take off my cool
im just like you
do the mistakes
or a human with flaws
admit that im lost
Round of applause
Take the abuse
Sometimes it feels like they want me to lose
It's entertainment
Is That An Excuse?(no)
But the question that lingers whether win or lose
who am i living for?
is this my limit?
can i endure some more?
Chances i'm Giving,
Question existing
who am i living for? ooohh
is this my limit?
cant i endure some more?
Chances I'm Giving,
Question existing.
[[dear diary,
It's Robyn.
Entertaining is something i do for a living.
It's not who i am.
I like to think that I'm normal.
I laugh.
I get mad.
I hurt.
I think guys suck sometimes.
But when you're in the spot light everything seems good.
I dont know who to trust.
I dont know who wants to date me for who i am.
Or who wants to be my friend for who i REALLY am.]]
who am i living for?
is this my limit?
can i endure some more?
Chances i'm Giving,
Question existing
who am i living for? ooohh
is this my limit?
cant i endure some more?
Chances I'm Giving,
Question existing.
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Monday, December 7, 2009
Marilyn
you know what my dream book would be to write? the ultimate biography on marilyn monroe. there are so many bios on her. maybe hundreds. but they all contradict each other; they can't agree. was she bisexual? was she molested as a child? who was her real father? does anyone know the real marilyn? was her death a suicide? natural? homicide? if it was a homicide, was it the kennedy's? so many questions. and it's impossible to ask the infamous blonde herself. but if my job was to real through all of these bios, including one that she wrote herself, and then write my own account of what i believe to be truthful, i'd love it. hmm... something to think about.
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Sunday, December 6, 2009
bookworld
drinking my pineapple juice that grandma brought over for me, watching the chronicles of narnia on disney channel because nothing else is on. its sunday, and even though i hate bloody mondays, sundays are wonderful in my book.
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Friday, December 4, 2009
A cup of Joe
i want some of these things!! the sheep, the lavender, the honey, the ring!! the candles, the foot massage, the perfume that smells like snow!!!!! everything looks so wonderful, i want it all! Joanna Goddard always talks about the most adorable things on her blog.
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Thursday, December 3, 2009
the cortland diaries: 2
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Wednesday, December 2, 2009
nassau did something fun for once.
it's no secret i hate college. i hated cortland, i hate nassau, and even though i am optimistic i will probably hate the next school too. but today nassau did something cool and invited Amber Tamblyn to come read some poetry and perform. I never saw most of the shows or movies she's been in, but I saw her in both Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants movies and she seemed talented enough. I have known about her poetry but i never got the opportunity to read/hear it before. Well, she came today at 2 oclock and we went to see her in CCB. She was pretty funny, her poetry was right up my alley, and she brought her mother along. Her mother is a singer and she sang a little bit and played background music for Amber. All in all it was a great performance and it was much better than attending class would have been.
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